Feeling a bit sad and overwhelmed this evening.

I have 4,749 unread emails. I have dirty dishes in the sink. A meeting with a professor at 9am to go over financial accounting problems I haven’t done yet. A 6am WOD. Three unfinished projects… one due at 6am. Mid-term exam tomorrow night in a subject I don’t understand. A presentation to a client on Wednesday. A weird smell in my house. And a husband who is disappointed in my lack of email communication.

Not very badass.

It will be okay… but in an effort to be open and honest, I must say that at the moment, this little badass is feeling a bit poopy. It’s the ebb and flow of the psychological games I play to stay productive and un-lonely during deployments… Before I realize it, to avoid feeling sorry for myself I have actually avoided paying attention to the one person who needs and deserves it.

I’m consciously aware of my unawareness. Hmmm…

Damn, now it’s up to 4,750 unread emails.