Got a big W today.
That stands for “withdraw” in university language.
I’m still in the MBA program, but will have to re-take Financial Accounting in order to graduate.
Good news: didn’t have to take final exam tonight. Won’t fail.
Bad news: I just prolonged graduation by a few semesters (until the course is offered again).
Oh well, it could be worse.
I am upset… but not really. Just in a weird mood. It’s just a difficult class that I know I am smart enough to pass – if I can focus and not have distractions like runaway dogs, deployment reunions, vertigo and car accidents. I am grateful that I can re-take it… but I’m disappointed that I had to withdraw, too.
In the big scheme of things… yes it’s disappointing to fail at something… but I have my health, faith and family. I’m alive and I’m moving forward.
The question of course… I’m moving forward, but which way am I going? Where is my path leading me?
I have a lot of little goals… but not really a BIG goal.
Little Goals:
Getting CrossFit Cert in January.
Hopefully getting Masters in Business in December of 2011.
Want to get muscle-up.
Want to get a single job (not all the little ones I have now) that compensates me for my hard work.
Okay — those are some little goals… but what’s the BIG one?
I taught a Bible study about “finding your gifts and talents for purpose.” I also led a mission trip with the Serventrepreneur Foundation that focused on this premise as well. These things led me to the MBA program… but now I’m looking beyond that and wondering… what’s NEXT?
I want to sit back and enjoy the moment… but I can’t. I’m not worried… I just want to make sure the time I’m spending now is fruitful… that it’s part of a bigger picture.
I think I’m A.D. D. I love CrossFit… but do I want to own my own box… not really. I love business… but do I want to start my own? Been there, done that and I’m still recovering. I love teaching… but do I want to be a professor? That would require a doctorate. I love bacon and cheese… but do I want to own a bacon a cheese deli?
Do you feel the same way about life?
Maybe it’s my age or being a wife of a talented pilot who’s got shit figured out… he’s got goals and a life plan… he’s using is talents for GOOD… and I’m a little jealous.
So big “W” — withdrawn.
Dude…right there with you. Micah is working on his SECOND Masters while I widdle away at work with my little Bachelor’s wondering what I’m going to be when I grow up. It’s hard when you like and are good at so many things, it makes picking one thing to focus on hard to do. You’re amazingly talented, which means there are plenty of things you can do but the question you pose is what do you want to do? Something I’ve been trying to work on is narrowing what I really want out of life, then once I find those things, try and find what I need to do to get me there. You should be completely proud of yourself though, you’ve accomplished more in, almost, 30 years than someone have done in a lifetime and you’ll totally kick that Fin Acc class in the ass next time.
I agree with Abby because she is my wife and is always right.
On a practical note, have you considered blogging as a career? I think you’re great at it, and there are plenty of people out there who are developing interesting blogging voices, and earning mad $$ from it. I am WAY into social media now since I just had a class on it, so it might just be me trying to get you to do what I like. Which is what I do to Abby all the time too.
(side note – I think it is due time for a blog post from Mr. N.Storm, His Mighty Badassness.)
I agree with Micah! You are very good at blogging!
BTW, all the “little” goals that you have out there that you are waiting to accomplish, to an average person, not a badass, any one of the goals by themselves are BIG goals. Average people just seem to accomplish one big goal at a time instead of tackling all of their life’s dreams in a year or two!
Day by day and you will figure it all out. Most of us feel the way you do….In your “spare” time read “The Traveler’s Gift”, it really helps put things into perspective. And that’s all any of us really needs is the right perspective. I can bring it to the gym if you want to read it.
Are you going to the cert in Charolette?